brain, sizzle stirfry

i haven't been blogging lately, distracted with so much fun! and games! and new music begging to be downloaded oh and jojo's fashion show that's strangely enough addicting. i think i have cause to be worried about my impending sanity. well but at least i'm reassured of my fashion sense (not that i can actually afford the clothing but still...)

supposed to hand in model UN resolutions by today, whatever the fuck that means. i seriously only got the email 10 minutes ago? and earlier in the day i was gloating to everyone who would listen that i didn't need to do it. well, fuck you you stupid student council leader who sends me stuff on the very deadline itself. i'll just pretend i didn't see it hahaha.

gossip girl-ed today i am reconnecting with my inner bitch.

pilates for Feelin' Fab, i think i was singularly disgusted and at the same time relieved that the male instructor was slightly gay? and each of the boys got touched by him to "correct their posture" with his hands scarily near places i would not want him going near if i were them. Relieved that the instructor wasn't a girl, because if it were a girl instructor who didn't mind touching girls like the male instructor touched the guys i would swear off pilates and other yoga-ish exercises for life.

web design from 8 am to 430 pm tomorrow i am still wondering how the bloody hell something so boring can be so long. apparently we're creating our own website, which i feel is utterly worthless because let's face it, i'd rather learn how to make my own blogskin. so i can make livejournal skins and then leave goddamn blogger for good because blogger really does piss me off

LJ I ILYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

this is the part where Blogger gets so offended it shuts my blog down and declares me as Public Enemy No. 2 (after livejournal)

nobody but you

"lemme see your class photo."
"no. i don't want you to stare at my friends!"
"who says i want to stare at your friends lor."
"then why'd you ask me for my class photo?" a smirk. "HA, I GOT YOU."
"no, i want to see who you like."
"i don't like anybody!"
"well, then i want to see who likes you."
"nobody likes me - oh, shit!"
"HA I GOT YOU BACK."


the conversations with me and my brother - honest crap, really.

politically incorrect

tomorrow math damn scared i'm only starting to revise now. trigonometry is scary trying to understand it but i will try and i'm gonna stay up all night if i have to. (:

determination, determination.
EOYS ENDING SOON

no seriously, what are you trying to prove?

carpe diem

"I see the girl I want to be riding bareback, carefree along the shore if only that someone was me jumping headfirst headlong without a thought to act and damn the consequence"

rifling through america holiday photos and oh the memories memories memories. i may not like the people there or their culture, but its a goddamn beautiful place, and you know what? I kind of missed Las Vegas. Granted, we only stayed two nights and one day was in the Grand Canyon (which i miss too) but i did miss LV. all that skankiness, overglitz and glamour - but it was all about carpe diem, about living your life in that precise moment in time and to heck with the consequences and although i am a little repulsed by that, some part of me does admire that carefree lifestyle.

okay, a very long breather

aircon on 25 degrees celsius music blaring eminem red bean waffle hot cup of horlicks mixed with milo various internet windows open feeling relaxed in a goddamn long time just taking a breather a very long breather and just thinking like i always do things in the past and things that are going to happen and things that should have happened and didnt and things that i shouldve done but didnt do

weekend has never felt so good

exams post modern day stress

i think one of the worst things in the world is trying to struggle through life, and especially exams. just slugging your way through the exam period, trying not to think of all your past failures and your probably-future failures as well and trying to surge on, trying so hard not to give up, give in to your emotions and have a break down and yet unable to because a part of you knows, knows that if you give in and cry you're going to fall; fall under the crushing weight of a million feet stampede for the top; you know if you start giving in and feeling sorry for yourself the tears won't stop flowing and you'll just be a doomed failure for the next day

the thing about exams is that they dont just challenge your intellect, they challenge your psychological wellbeing and your resolution to just keep going forward, forward, forward;

exam periods are the worst periods i have ever had

tweeter

eoys tomorrow. an attempt to research LA, i am staring at a website titled "Porn Statistics and Research".
Um, ok.

I shall only Tweet until post EOYS toodles